Back to Square One, or Two
It’s hard for me to write what I’m about to write. I don’t want to have to do this again and I feel like I’ve failed or let someone down.
But the reality is this:
I just had my 3rd child after 9 months of back pain that made it difficult to walk, 7 weeks of physical therapy, countless chiropractor appointments, 6 days past my due date, with 21 hours of labor, and a home birth.
Whew. That’s a mouthful.
But since I started my journey being candid, I’m going back that. Because mostly I’m tired of trying to be someone I’m not, and write like someone I’m not.
As I type these words, I weigh in at 200 lbs (that’s the hard thing I didn’t want to write, but I did…yay me!)
I’d put a sad face, but my body has endured a lot this past year, and I have an amazing new son to show for it. So I’m not putting a sad face, I’m putting on a brave face.
I know I can and will lose the weight again. I plan to. I also plan to share my journey here. In all it’s raw beauty.
Because everyone likes pictures.
This one was taken last Friday at the weigh in kiosk. It’s me. In all my 200 lb beauty. I’m not going to apologize for gaining weight while pregnant. I’m going to do what I know to do, and eventually it will come off.
So here’s to starting again, starting somewhere in the middle, and being confident that I can.